Saturday, July 11, 2009 9:05 AM
I never want to step into that place again. I really don't want to. It's scary, solemn and sad.
I've never been that upset for a friend in my life. It's been a long time since I cried like a helpless baby. Constantly sniffing away. I reused and reused my soaked tissue paper to wipe the tears of my swollen eyes. I didn't care. Neither did the people there did.
It was hard. The last goodbye was really hard. It was then when I couldn't control holding back my tears anymore. IT just flowed and flowed and flowed. As I walk down, following the queue. I saw his coffin appearing, inch by inch. I walked forward to see his face for the last time. He was lying there with his eyes closed. He looked just like before, just more handsome. He was beautifully made. It was the first time I looked at every inch of his face. From his forehead to his eyes to his lips. I just stared and cried uncontrollably. "Goodbye Edwin. Flora will miss you." And I walked away.
It was the hardest goodbye. I went to hug Wendy there after. She hugged me so tight, so deep, that made me cried out loud. It was a passionate and sincere hug. We just both cried in each others' arms. Nobody needed to say a word. We just needed support from one another.
It was a life changing moment. I just wanted to thank the people around me for all the support and love. You won't understand how I felt till you've experienced it personally. I thought I was strong enough, but was in fact one of the first to fall.
Dying is easy, having your love ones to live with the fact is difficult. Committing suicide is the most irresponsible thing a person can do. Life, if you don't take control of it, it will.
~The occurrence of strong harmonic Beats~
